my heart is breaking
Let’s see if I can get through this post without crying… But I don’t really think that will happen…
Before I go on, I want you all to know that this is not a joke. This isn’t some late April Fools Day prank. This is real.
I know I have always said that I’ll never leave. That I’ll always be posting on LHOAG. That I planned to be buying dolls and posting on here till I was an old lady. But time has changed things.
My passion for dolls and doll blogging has faded. At the beginning of the year I had written down goals for this blog and I was super excited about it. I hoped that this would be a big year for LHOAG, but as I’m sure you all can tell, I’ve hardly been posting here the past few months.
I’ve felt lazy to post. I’ve preferred doing other things instead of posting. And all the while I’ve felt super guilty about not posting here.
Each month I’ve been saying – okay, this month I’m gonna post more! And then I just don’t.
I’ve come to the realization after a long heart to heart talk with my mom that my passions have changed. Dolls are no longer my passion in life, though I still love them very much, they just aren’t my passion anymore. Writing is my new passion. I’d rather spend my time brainstorming, reading writing posts, writing, etc. than dressing up my dolls and taking pictures of them.
And I can’t tell you how much it pains me to say that. My dolls and this blog have been literally a part of me these past 4 years. I’ve learned, gained, and given so much through this blog and I can’t imagine what my life would have been like without it. In fact – my passion for writing really came because of this blog. So through an old passion, a new one emerged.
That’s okay, though. We can’t hold onto everything in life, no matter how much we may want to. People grow up, times change, and with that comes new passions, new adventures, and a new chapter in life.
So my friends, it is time for me to say it – I’m not going to be posting anymore on this blog. At least… not regularly.
I don’t believe that my days of photographing dolls and making photostories are completely over, so I believe that I will still come back here and post things, I just don’t know how often. It could be weeks, months, or even a year apart, but I know I’m not 100% out of the game just yet. So please don’t unfollow me – I’m certain I will still have more things posted on here, I just don’t know when. I’m only going to post if I feel the urge to do so.
Letting go is so hard. I feel like I’m saying goodbye to the last piece of my childhood. Like I’m ending one chapter and beginning a new one. This is really hard for me, guys. I can’t even begin to tell you how much I’ve loved this blog and the journey it’s taken me on.
And I love you all so much. I know that sounds like a lie, but I mean it. You all have made me so happy and have been such a huge part of my life. Because you mean so much to me, I feel so terrible to do this, but I know you’ll understand. <3
Thank you all for the love you’ve expressed to me and my blog. For your words of encouragement, advice, and support. Thank you for every like, every comment, and every follow. Thank you for being there for me through the good and the bad. <3
I’m not leaving the blogosphere. I’m still gonna be around, reading, commenting, and liking your posts. And I’ll still be posting over on Little Miss Fluffet, so please go follow me there so we can stay in touch. I don’t wanna lose you guys. <3 I post about my writing on LMF, fandom things, and will also be posting my monthly recaps there, so you can stay pretty much up to date on my life on that blog 😉 And rest assured this blog will always remain open and running!
I feel like I can’t end this post, cause it just feels so final and it’s breaking me. But I’ll be back. I will. Someday. :’)
With Much Love from Your Friend,